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by bunsonbyrner
Fri Apr 17, 2020 2:48 pm
Forum: International Suboxone Issues
Topic: Moving to Oregon (US)
Replies: 2
Views: 1110

Moving to Oregon (US)

Hello all, It's been quite a long time since last I posted here, and a LOT has happened. I'm nearing the end of my graduate MFA program at California State University, Fullerton, where I have also taken up teaching figure drawing part time. COVID-19 swept in like a hurricane and knocked the wind out...
by bunsonbyrner
Mon Sep 02, 2019 1:11 am
Forum: Family Issues and Addiction
Topic: Martyr Complex (LONG Post)
Replies: 4
Views: 1710

Re: Martyr Complex (LONG Post)

Hi guys, I was just checking back because that complex is rearing it’s ugly head again tonight. It’s at its worst when she’s tired—which is most always—and we’ve discussed it a bit. We’ve had MASSIVE tech breakdowns lately. That two year old—who just turned three this week—destroyed the family TV se...
by bunsonbyrner
Sun Jul 07, 2019 2:04 pm
Forum: Family Issues and Addiction
Topic: Martyr Complex (LONG Post)
Replies: 4
Views: 1710

Martyr Complex (LONG Post)

It’s been a while since I was active on here, and to be honest, I’ve posted more about the struggles of my marriage than anything to do with staying clean, the latter of which I’ve been doing fairly well. Coming back to the former, I have determined—at least in opinion if not in fact—that my wife su...
by bunsonbyrner
Sun Jul 07, 2019 12:28 pm
Forum: Misc. Suboxone Issues
Topic: Drug screen(s) bill?
Replies: 6
Views: 1699

Re: Drug screen(s) bill?

For what it’s worth, I’ve been running into an identical issue at my doctor’s office. I brought it up with them and the doctor was confused, knowing that I have pretty good insurance through my day job (United Healthcare PPO). Along with the piss test though, there is a lab form I have to fill out e...
by bunsonbyrner
Mon Mar 11, 2019 2:41 am
Forum: Buprenorphine and Mood
Topic: suboxone stabilizing bipolar disorder?
Replies: 23
Views: 8574

Re: suboxone stabilizing bipolar disorder?

Just chiming in as another bipolar type II person who has noticed a significant improvement in mood/quality of life since inducting on Zubsolv, my insurance covered brand of Suboxone. I am one of those though, who takes a pill to feel better and often that has led me to trouble in taking more Zubsol...
by bunsonbyrner
Thu Jan 10, 2019 1:41 am
Forum: Buprenorphine Side Effects
Topic: Nightmares and Dreamscapes
Replies: 16
Views: 4034

Re: Nightmares and Dreamscapes

The header dragged me in. I’m also a long time Stephen King fan, and someone who loves living in that alternate dream state when possible. To date, I wouldn’t say I’ve noticed an upswing in any particular kind of dream, nightmares included. My Zubsolv (the brand of buprenorohine/naloxone my insuranc...
by bunsonbyrner
Wed Jan 02, 2019 1:37 am
Forum: Buprenorphine Side Effects
Topic: Snoring
Replies: 12
Views: 2828

Re: Snoring

Well, the show ended up on the other foot a few nights back. My wife had a fairly major surgery and her doctor put her on norco for the pain, which has been pretty intense. Back in my days of active use, norco was my drug of choice, but I’ve been pretty proud of myself that I haven’t felt the least ...
by bunsonbyrner
Sun Dec 16, 2018 1:34 am
Forum: Buprenorphine Side Effects
Topic: Snoring
Replies: 12
Views: 2828

Re: Snoring

Thanks, all! And Razor55, I’ll be grabbing some of those strips until I can get proper medical help. I have insurance, it’s just up to now, I have no time. I’m working 32 hours a week at my retail job, 9+ hours at my university job, and trying to get two comic books ready for publication in the earl...
by bunsonbyrner
Thu Dec 13, 2018 5:01 am
Forum: Buprenorphine Side Effects
Topic: Snoring
Replies: 12
Views: 2828

Snoring

I used to have issues with insomnia and the ability to shut my mind down at night, but since going onto Zubsolv a couple years ago now, no longer. In fact, falling asleep has reached narcoleptic levels of ease, wherein sitting or standing in the same position for too long causes me to start nodding ...
by bunsonbyrner
Sun Nov 25, 2018 12:14 am
Forum: Freestyle
Topic: Losing It
Replies: 9
Views: 2751

Re: Losing It

I love Festivus! That might work. I’m willing to give it a shot. One of my childhood/adulthood heroes passed away today (Ricky Jay, if you hadn’t heard) and I could tell my wife was trying to get my goat about him if only because I had nice things to say about him and she was feeling tired and contr...
by bunsonbyrner
Sun Nov 18, 2018 1:54 am
Forum: Freestyle
Topic: Losing It
Replies: 9
Views: 2751

Re: Losing It

Thanks Amy and JennJenn, You both always return with such thoughtful replies. Without keeping score, I am attempting to take a scientific approach to what is going on. I’m trying to document when and how the upsets occur. I know she is looking for things to point out and correct when she’s tired. I ...
by bunsonbyrner
Sun Oct 28, 2018 10:33 am
Forum: Freestyle
Topic: Losing It
Replies: 9
Views: 2751

Re: Losing It

Had to doublecheck the byline to make sure I had written this. If you’d asked me two days ago if I was doing better, I would have had to say yes. But contrasting what I said a year ago against the argument my wife and I had last night—an argument spurred on by her expectations of how everyone should...
by bunsonbyrner
Sun Sep 23, 2018 10:59 am
Forum: Buprenorphine Dosing Discussion
Topic: Gatekeeping
Replies: 25
Views: 3936

Re: Gatekeeping

Hi JennJenn and Amy! I had posted a response yesterday, or thought I had, but it ain’t here, so... To answer Amy’s question, my birthday was yesterday, September 22. I did get the watch. Just the series 3, nothing too fancy, which was all I wanted. I do have to pool all of the birthday money I got f...
by bunsonbyrner
Sun Sep 23, 2018 4:44 am
Forum: Damn Pharmacist/Doctor Stories
Topic: Moral High Ground
Replies: 1
Views: 1125

Moral High Ground

I’ve been going to the same pharmacist now for just over three years, ever since I started taking Zubsolv, actually. They’re a small mom & pop type place, literally right across the street from my original intake doctor’s office. I’ve stuck with them even though they’re quite out of my way because t...
by bunsonbyrner
Sat Sep 22, 2018 10:13 pm
Forum: Buprenorphine Dosing Discussion
Topic: Gatekeeping
Replies: 25
Views: 3936

Re: Gatekeeping

Thanks JennJenn and Amy! You two have always been wonderful. To answer Amy’s question first, my birthday is actually today, September 22. Same as Bilbo and Frodo Baggins, Tommy Lasorda, Bonnie Hunt and Scott Bayo. I did end up getting the watch. With my wife’s blessing. It’s been a pretty good week....
by bunsonbyrner
Sun Sep 16, 2018 12:17 pm
Forum: Buprenorphine Dosing Discussion
Topic: Gatekeeping
Replies: 25
Views: 3936

Re: Gatekeeping

Boy, that’s rough. And crazy. I wouldn’t dream of buying a car without consulting my wife. I mean, she gets upset sometimes if I buy our son a Hotwheels at the grocery store. That has less to do with cost, though. At the heart of it, neither of us buys big things without consulting the other, and we...
by bunsonbyrner
Sat Sep 15, 2018 10:33 am
Forum: Where are you now?
Topic: State Of Self 9/2018
Replies: 1
Views: 985

State Of Self 9/2018

I went in for outpatient rehabilitation just over three years ago now. A year to the day after going in for help, my first child, a son, was born. He’s two now. I’m about to turn 37. I currently take 3 Zubsolv a day. My wife gatekeeps the medication for me as I have a tendency to take more than need...
by bunsonbyrner
Fri Sep 14, 2018 10:47 pm
Forum: Buprenorphine Dosing Discussion
Topic: Gatekeeping
Replies: 25
Views: 3936

Re: Gatekeeping

Addendum to everything else, I realize I’m getting worked up over nothing. It’s not my birthday yet. I’ve been surprised about as often as I’ve been disappointed before. I’m sticking to my 3 Zubsolv a day, no matter how flustered I get, I’m finding new ways through. That in itself feels like a victo...
by bunsonbyrner
Fri Sep 14, 2018 7:44 pm
Forum: Family Issues and Addiction
Topic: Scorn Flakes
Replies: 23
Views: 4792

Re: Scorn Flakes

Sorry this reply is coming so late. I posted some rants, decidedly off topic, in the Dosing Discussion area under the Gatekeeping post. I feel like I’m hitting critical mass, personally. My birthday is approaching, and in recent years, I’ve come to dread them. Not because I’m getting older, but beca...
by bunsonbyrner
Fri Sep 14, 2018 7:24 pm
Forum: Buprenorphine Dosing Discussion
Topic: Gatekeeping
Replies: 25
Views: 3936

Re: Gatekeeping (It’s my birthday and I’ll cry if I want to)

Short version: I feel expensive, not valued. I can’t even get my wife to discuss the birthday gift she proposed. She had wildly underestimated the price, even with the price cut and my employee discount and started back tracking. Meanwhile, it’s perfectly okay, meaning there’s always room in the bud...