That seems to be a characteristic of extroverts vs introverts, the "charge/recharge" thing. It also has much to do with how information is gathered and processed. Its a really interesting subject matter that I spent a lot of personal time delving into, while trying to gain self knowledge as to my strong and not-so-strong points.Amy-Work In Progress wrote:I've been thinking a lot about people who are introverted versus extroverted. The Meyers-Briggs Personality Test (based on Carl Jung's theories) describes the difference based on the way you recharge yourself. An extrovert needs to be around other people to gain energy and maintain their balance. An introvert needs to be alone to recharge. I'm paraphrasing, of course.
I used to score slightly on the extroverted side. I've always loved people and I usually find it fairly easy to put others at ease with small talk. I'll strike up conversations with strangers with little problem. It's like I can put my "extroverted face" on when I need to. However, it wears me down to do so.
Since my addiction, which started in my mid 30s, I've become MUCH more introverted. At first when I started a life of recovery I could barely leave my house for a couple hours at a time. It's been almost 3 years and I've worked my way up to being able to work 4 to 5 days a week away from home. Sometimes I have to psych myself up to it if it gets into my brain that I can't do it! I usually use logic and it overcomes my fears and anxiety. Mostly that works. However, I LIVE to be at home, often holed up in my room with my books and computer. It's my safe place.
My sister (who is also an introvert) thinks I'm weird and is concerned that I want/need to spend a portion of my day in my bedroom to decompress, relax, recharge my energy, etc. (Of course she is single and lives home alone, so her whole house is her safe zone.) I don't have to be by myself in my room, btw.
I wonder a couple things. Is it strange of me to have a room in my house where I'm most comfortable? Is it weird that I seek to spend time awake there every day or I can get cranky, tired, and anxious? What was it about addiction that changed me into a near agoraphobic (fear of leaving home)? I haven't been able to figure that last one out at all!
If anyone has any insight into my questions I would really appreciate it!
Its interesting how the stereotypes about introverts and extroverts don't always hold true when viewed as a part of the MBTI/ Jungian types. I always test as an ENFP (have taken it maybe a half dozen times over the last 6-7 years, since i first came across an MBTI test on the 'net), with a mildly expressed extroversion score. I do get a lift from being around people, if they are the 'right' kind of people, that is. But oftentimes, people who don't know me well, would think I was an introvert, as I often tend to be content with just being around people, but can go off into my own little world still, and not always be engaged. That does fluctuate with the bipolar thing though, too.
I think when I was a kid, I was an INFP. I'm pretty sure of it actually, as I have a good long term memory that includes most of my childhood. I think I switched to mildly extroverted sometime after puberty. I also switched from playing clarinet to drums around puberty, too, lol.
On the other side of the coin, many confirmed (MBTI-wise) introverts whom I've known, were very gregarious and would have been considered extroverts, if only using the stereotype as a guide.
My (very) recent test scores (in file that's attached):
What's changed, oddly, since last time I took it, is my perceiving score went down (it used to be in moderate range), or, judging went up. Or maybe both