Oh Man,,Im so sorry to hear about your son,,and too damn young to lose!!,,I often wonder about people i meet on these forums then dont hear from them again,,it always worries me,,and i tend to take to heart what i get from other members of whatever forum im on.,,I wish i had known him.Katherine wrote:Hi everybody,
While going through my sons address book, I found info that he was a member of this forum last year. I thought I'd sign in to tell you that Kevin "blue" died earlier this year from an overdose of percocet/valium/vicodin. He was 38 yrs old. He was on Suboxone for 4-5 months last year. He quit the program because it became a "burden" and expensive. We later found out that Suboxone just wasn't killing the physical and emotional pain he was trying to escape from.
This is very personal to me, but maybe I can save someone's life on here by telling you this story. Don't give up, and don't leave the program early for losing faith. While Kevin was very open with not caring whether he lived or died, I bet he would change his mind if he knew how many wonderful more years he could've had, and how many friends and family he left behind that are heartbroken.
Good luck & God bless.
I can relate in a way,,i know theres nothin worse than losin a child ,,but i lost my wife of 20 yrs and she was only 55yrs old...It was sad cause we had just lost our home to a tornado,,then wer decided we were gonna get our shit together and live our5 lives sober till the teenage girls moved out ,,then it was gonna be our time,,i went to detox first to get off xanax,,then she was going in,,I guess she wanted to get her last hurrah in before she went,,and died while i was in detox.,,we never remembered our anniversary but she died on it so i'll never forget.
And what you say about not quiting is probably the best advise for most of us,,sub is the only thing that has stopped me,,10 yrs in prison didnt,,30 days in a coma where i actually did die for a minute,,and they were gonna pull the plug but did one more test first and found some brain function,,but 2 months later i was in ER for overdose,, it was then, in 04 they put me on sub,,my doctor told me to seek this med before food and shelter cause he knew i wouldnt last much longer.
anyway,,i just seen this and wanted to say im sorry for your lose and i apreciate you postin what you did.
I also wanted to say i understand your anger at the cost of this drug,,and there are so many cashing in on it,,I had one doctor,,im on medicaiid and disabled after the coma,,my kidneys shut down and infection in lungs spread all over,,but getting back to this doctor,,my regular doctor retired annd he refeered me to this doctor,,i was his very first paitient,,he would talk to me like i was a doctor about other people and it was wierd,,then they office workers didnt do the paperwork right and one day i go to my appt. and he walks in,,and throws a script on the table and says dont come here for free meds anymore,,if you can pay your connections you can pay me,,I didnt have the slightest idea what he was talkin about!
I also wanted to add that kevins story just might save a life,,and i hope thats true!